Backwards Spirituality
There are levels or stages to our awakening. The reason I am starting with the topic of backwards spirituality is because what many are calling "spiritual practice" is truly thinly veiled egoism & religionism. I am "right" and you are "wrong" mentality is what will typically stunt spiritual growth. Being the observer and constantly looking to learn is a trait of the wise. The wise are aware that they don't hold all perspectives and observe, as well as, listen before giving opinions. Others may have referred to me as wise, however, I see myself as an explorer or one who is constantly learning.
Since spirituality has become popularized in recent years the mind control & fear has become more apparent. The soul doesn't know fear because it does not fear death. The ego or "personality" fears non-existence because it knows inherently it does not exist. Each soul is a unique aspect of a larger whole. Our personality is constructed over time based on "experience" and perception given to us by the reality around us. When we tune into our soul it may be a stark contrast to the actual reality. The is why Isis or Auset says "no one has lifted my veil & seen my face". You have not lifted the veil around your own soul to see yourself. While it is beneficial for all individuals to question the nature of reality and engage in spiritual practice, it is counter productive to assume you know all where you are; instead of remaining open to new-wisdom as an explorer. When we look for a leader instead of leading ourselves and don't remain open to learning from others we become stagnate and ridged. There is a balance between being fluid & grounded, being earth and air, learning to also flow in between worlds like water and forge new paths like fire.
Oh My Soul: The Devourer
In our spiritual practice as we evolve and grow we come across many crossroads. Often times we are faced with remaining comfortable in what we are used to or taking the road less traveled. The road less traveled is often times where the most growth is required, however, it's a hard choice to leave what we know for the unknown. Taking the path that leads to the unknown requires us to sacrifice the comfort of what we already know.
A few weeks ago I started having visions and dreams of my own soul but she seemed like a demoness or a devourer. I felt like she was coming after me to devour me and I was confused as to why this was happening. I have always trusted my soul because she has always lead me with compassion. So this level of aggression was unsettling. I, however, decided to not freak out or give into fear but rather to become the observer. So I observed this new energy coming to me. This is an unveiling of my own soul. Going beyond separate dimensions, separate realities, what is considered "evil" & what is considered "good". Instead perceiving compassion exists for all beings regardless of "levels", identity, and war like separation. It's not us versus them it's only US.
So as my soul came to me over the period of a few weeks I just observed these dreams and finally was faced with the devourer aspect of my own soul. I sacrificed an aspect of my identity or personality. That indeed was constructed in this reality and for this reality. In order to give my soul more space to exist in part in my body and beyond. Astrology gives us great insight into our personality construct. I call this a "personality construct" because the personality is only a tool to navigate this reality and nothing more. The gnostics looked at the planets as the original "archons" and us being under the influence of these entities was looked at as wicked. The planets are not wicked but represent a divine order and give us a path for self-actualization as a sovereign soul. We can look into the 12 labors of Zeus, which also represents the zodiac, as a mythology of us becoming our own hero. As we conquer the lower aspects of the zodiac we become our own hero and become free. Truly sovereign.
Do Not Give Into Fear
As the energy on the planet shifts many of us are being faced with our souls as our devourer and are going through a dark night of the soul. The dark night of the soul is when we are faced with the aspects of ourselves we try to hide from or ignore. It could be pain from our childhood, inherent anger, pain, depression ect. These aspects must be released so we can connect with our own soul on a deeper level. We sacrifice this energy that blocks us, places blame on others, shuts down our ability to feel divine love on the alter of the soul. Asking our soul to compassionately devour that which does not belong to us any longer.
The Truth of This Reality
Look all around you, everything in this reality consumes something. The leaves fall away in Autumn, decay and nourish the tree it once belonged to. The animals consume each other & plants. Plants consume water and air. We all consume the air and water. Honoring these cycles and being in a vibration of appreciation and divine love the process becomes one of compassion. In the bible Jesus said of the bread "this is my body, take this and eat in remembrance of me." He said the same about the wine turning it to his blood. On a lower level this has been perverted and is mock cannibalism. On a higher level this is an allegory about sacrificing our energy not for ourselves but for others. When we are spent and depleted we find the truth within ourselves, it's the unveiling of the true essence of our soul. We learn we are not here for ourselves but for others, for each other.
When we balance this perspective we learn to balance sacrifice with our willpower. There is nothing in this illusion that is here for you other that spiritual essence & other souls. When we can see the divine within ourselves, in what is decay and morose, we begin to see with the eyes of the divine and recognize the divinity in everything around us. No longer offended, full of hate or full of sadness. We become the golden Christ light and the devouring darkness all at once. Absolving all paradoxes and becoming the whole, true self.
